Live in the present moment and find your
interest
and
happiness
in the things of today. --- I have found it in Nico!
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Friday, April 14, 2006
HOLY THURSDAY
I'm sad....I don't feel comfortable in this relationship. Magulo! it hurts, it drives me crazy, it angers me too!
Friday, April 07, 2006
Saturday, March 25, 2006
For you... you know who you are!
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?
or saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart
if you don't, you might break theirs
Have you ever decided not to become a couple
because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own....when you least suspect it,
or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had,
but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...
for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone
because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid...
afraid of what we don't know,
afraid of what others will think,
afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie,
the thing we fear grows stronger.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done,
or could have had.
*What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow
and you never got to tell them how you felt?
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all
and they know I love them?
*People live, people die.
And I want to tell you that you are a friend.
If you died tomorrow, you would be in my heart!!!
Would I be in yours?
Do you care about me as much as I care about you?
You might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next,
and don't want to talk at all the year after that.
So, I just wanted to say,
even if I never talk to you again in my life,
you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,
I look up to you,
respect you,
and truly cherish you.
Remember, everyone needs a friend,
someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all,
just remember this and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about YOU!!!!
I care for real....
one day they’ll see,
how much you mean to me.
One day they’ll know,
how much I love you so.
One day we’ll shine,
and I will shout that you are mine.
One day we’ll b together
FOREVER & for ALWAYS...
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?
or saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart
if you don't, you might break theirs
Have you ever decided not to become a couple
because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own....when you least suspect it,
or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had,
but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...
for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone
because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid...
afraid of what we don't know,
afraid of what others will think,
afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie,
the thing we fear grows stronger.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done,
or could have had.
*What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow
and you never got to tell them how you felt?
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all
and they know I love them?
*People live, people die.
And I want to tell you that you are a friend.
If you died tomorrow, you would be in my heart!!!
Would I be in yours?
Do you care about me as much as I care about you?
You might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next,
and don't want to talk at all the year after that.
So, I just wanted to say,
even if I never talk to you again in my life,
you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,
I look up to you,
respect you,
and truly cherish you.
Remember, everyone needs a friend,
someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all,
just remember this and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about YOU!!!!
I care for real....
one day they’ll see,
how much you mean to me.
One day they’ll know,
how much I love you so.
One day we’ll shine,
and I will shout that you are mine.
One day we’ll b together
FOREVER & for ALWAYS...
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Saturday
Shit!
do i have to always put up with this thing?
i may have no right to fret and react
but dont i have feelings too?
am i not also human?
Shit!
its Saturday,
just when the week is done.
and you end up at the end of the day
why do i have to always end up the last?
That's cause we're nothing.
Yeah, we are nothing together
nothing goes between us.
How ironic we are now strangers
This had to stop.
I leave this place
silently
You don't exist!
do i have to always put up with this thing?
i may have no right to fret and react
but dont i have feelings too?
am i not also human?
Shit!
its Saturday,
just when the week is done.
and you end up at the end of the day
why do i have to always end up the last?
That's cause we're nothing.
Yeah, we are nothing together
nothing goes between us.
How ironic we are now strangers
This had to stop.
I leave this place
silently
You don't exist!
Heaven
I have changed my blog addy and even the title for some reasons. First, I feel its time I should make some changes. Second, its because some factors hinders me from putting my thoughts and feelings openly, knowing that some people knows the link to my site. I feel I dont have the privancy to express myself without being judged or criticized. It makes me feel limited. Althought I know that having my blog open to the public for viewing is something I took as a risk. People would have viewed this blog because i made it public. If i wanted this to be free from the prying eyes of critics then I shouldn't be blogging in the first place especially not on internet. However, the fact I am blogging online being criticized or ridiculed by others is something that I cannot avoid because I made this blog known therefore anybody can view this. What I just don't want is some people who I do not want to read my blog because I do not want them to be in anyway part of my blogging should they read and make a comment. I simply dont want them to do anything with this or my life. I just want these people to lost track of this site so I can live my life and set this blog the way I want it to be. Third, this is my blog and I do what I want to do with it. I write what I want to write without the fear of being criticized or talked about by others. Maybe, if other people who view my blog talks about me, wont hurt at all because I don't even know them but people who I know and who talks and comment whether its posted or not is something that affects me and stop me from expressing what I want... Like in society, we people are often conscious of what others say, it bothers us, it hinders us and makes us hesistant until we finally lost the heart and abondone what we used to love doing. What was supposed to help us are now pulling us down. This shouldn't be the case with my blogging. As one of my chat friend told me before, "You blog and do things for yourself and not for others. Your happiness doesn't have to depend on anyone. You dont need to worry what others would say, to hell with them anyway.." Yeah, and to hell with you who reads this blog if you have the tendency to criticize and say unpleasant things then you know you are the one person I would want to erase in my world...
Monday, February 27, 2006
When DARKNESS Fall...
A Quote from Shakespear :
Juliet: "Parting is such a sweet sorrow,
that I shall say goodnight till it be morrow..."
(Romeo and Juliet)
***Rememer me from day to day,
Remember me when I am away.
But if death will be my bed,
Remember me when I am dead.
DEATH is but a dream...for those who are prepared.
*When DARKNESS fall
embrace it with glee...
Juliet: "Parting is such a sweet sorrow,
that I shall say goodnight till it be morrow..."
(Romeo and Juliet)
***Rememer me from day to day,
Remember me when I am away.
But if death will be my bed,
Remember me when I am dead.
DEATH is but a dream...for those who are prepared.
*When DARKNESS fall
embrace it with glee...
Thursday, February 23, 2006
I Love You, Then I Hate You
I'd like to run away from you
But if I were to leave you I would die
I'd like to break the chains you put around me
And yet I'll never try
No matter what you do you drive me crazy
I'd rather be alone
But then I know my life would be so empty
As soon as you were gone
Impossible to live with you
But I could never live without you
For whatever you do
For whatever you do
I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you
You make me sad
You make me strong
You make me mad
You make me long for you
You make me long for you
You make me live
You make me die
You make me laugh
You make me cry for you
You make me cry for you
I hate you then I love you
Then I love you then I hate you
Then I love you more
For whatever you do I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you
You treat me wrong
You treat me right
You let me be
You make me fight with you
I could never live without you
You make me high
You bring me down
You set me free
You hold me bound to you
I hate you then I love you
Then I love you then I hate you
Then I love you more
I love you more
For whatever you do
For whatever you do
I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you
I never, never, never
I never, never, never
I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you
But you
Album Version On:LET'S TALK ABOUT LOVE(Written By:T. Renis, M. De Falla, A. Testa, F. Testa, N. Newell)
But if I were to leave you I would die
I'd like to break the chains you put around me
And yet I'll never try
No matter what you do you drive me crazy
I'd rather be alone
But then I know my life would be so empty
As soon as you were gone
Impossible to live with you
But I could never live without you
For whatever you do
For whatever you do
I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you
You make me sad
You make me strong
You make me mad
You make me long for you
You make me long for you
You make me live
You make me die
You make me laugh
You make me cry for you
You make me cry for you
I hate you then I love you
Then I love you then I hate you
Then I love you more
For whatever you do I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you
You treat me wrong
You treat me right
You let me be
You make me fight with you
I could never live without you
You make me high
You bring me down
You set me free
You hold me bound to you
I hate you then I love you
Then I love you then I hate you
Then I love you more
I love you more
For whatever you do
For whatever you do
I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you
I never, never, never
I never, never, never
I never, never, never
Want to be in love with anyone but you
But you
Album Version On:LET'S TALK ABOUT LOVE(Written By:T. Renis, M. De Falla, A. Testa, F. Testa, N. Newell)
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Bright Star
I woke up today at around five o' clock in the morning and saw a star shining on my window. It's such a big bright star and I find it so odd to be shinning at this time and day. Usually I get to see such star only during December. I believe in the sign of the birth of Jesus Christ, a bright star shone up in the sky.However, its no longer December and yet I see this unusual star. I closed my eyes and made a wish.... I wished for something... and I hope it will come true. My wish is not hard, I wished for something I long wanted to have....something my heart longs for...
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Happy Valentine!
It's hearts day today and I went to work in college supposedly to get my paycheck and encash it. However, I got there late and the payroll office is closed, out for lunch and won't be back until 1:30pm. Aww! I have class at 2:30pm and I am sure the bank will be full and I wont make it in line to encash my check. I went to Red Ribbon for lunch and a colleague dropped by and joined me for lunch. It was a nice lunch and we discussed a project for work. After lunch we went back to the campus and I recieved the two boxes of brownies I ordered and gave one box to my students as a Valentine gift. I also made some little heart cards with a small hand I love you sign. My class moved to another room because we have to give way to a symposium. There was no computer in the room where we moved and I had to bring my heavy laptop. And what a luck, the assigned technician couldnt fix the Multi-Media projector so someone else was called to fix it but, they couldnt fix it either (LOL!). So, finally they called the "master". I started my class by talking about the Rose of the Little Prince from the book "The Little Prince"... It's a beautiful story... "She is MY rose! She is beautiful and none of you are like her. Because, she is unique in all the world!"
I gave the other box of brownies to my colleagues. After class I rushed out to get a train and meet my family for a Valentine dinner. They were at Gloria Maris exactly 7pm and I got there 15minutes late. I was glad they were early or else we would be waiting in line to get a table. There were plenty of people since it's Valentine's Day. I talked to my Dad what happened during the day and I also told him about Andres.... We had a nice dinner and the food were really delicious, we were so full there was no more room for desert (LOL!). After dinner, my sister excused herself to shop for jeans 'cuz I gave her a gift certificate worth P500. My Dad and I talked some more while waiting for my sister. We went home on separate ways cuz I am not living with them. My Dad accompanied me to get a cab. I got home quick and was happy, TRULY!
What a very nice Valentine's Day!
Saturday, February 04, 2006
"LOVE"- The Best of All!
Love is joy
that a sad heart is made to feel
an incomparable gladness.
Love is brave
that an indefatigable heart will struggle
to fight for its right.
Love is ambitious
that an impossible dream
will certainly come true
Love is sacrifice
that moves us to go out ourselves
give of ourselves and unite ourselves
Love is everything!
And Best of All!
for it gives us reasons
to travel life's uncertain road
Hoping that joy and peace
will welcome us at the end of the journey...
that a sad heart is made to feel
an incomparable gladness.
Love is brave
that an indefatigable heart will struggle
to fight for its right.
Love is ambitious
that an impossible dream
will certainly come true
Love is sacrifice
that moves us to go out ourselves
give of ourselves and unite ourselves
Love is everything!
And Best of All!
for it gives us reasons
to travel life's uncertain road
Hoping that joy and peace
will welcome us at the end of the journey...
I Can!
Ref:
I can live
I can love
I can reach the heavens above
I can right what is wrong
I can sing just any song.
I can dance,
I can fly---
And touch the rainbow in the sky
I can be your good friend
I can love you,
until the end.
What took you so long
to make me see
How lucky I am
'coz I am free
Free to do the things
I wanna do.
What took you so long
to make me feel
I can give love,
a love so real.
What took you so long
to let me know....that
Repeat Ref.
What took you so long
to make me cry,
so I will know the reason why....
I'm so lucky
I can smile
I didn't know
this for a while...
I can live
I can love
I can reach the heavens above
I can right what is wrong
I can sing just any song.
I can dance,
I can fly---
And touch the rainbow in the sky
I can be your good friend
I can love you,
until the end.
What took you so long
to make me see
How lucky I am
'coz I am free
Free to do the things
I wanna do.
What took you so long
to make me feel
I can give love,
a love so real.
What took you so long
to let me know....that
Repeat Ref.
What took you so long
to make me cry,
so I will know the reason why....
I'm so lucky
I can smile
I didn't know
this for a while...
Somewhere
Somewhere
as I watch your love unfold
The child inside my soul
Breathes you in and hold you closer....
Now as I look into your eyes
I see the turning of the tide
And the beating of my heart surrenders....
The words are on my lips
But they are hard for me to say
My emotions are eclipsed
One single kiss could take my
breath away---
Somewhere
in the silent morning
Some way out beyond the sea of blue
There's a dream that's calling
Somewhere there is a place for me and you....
Oh me and you....
Somewhere
as the images unwind
we move in perfect time
And precious words of love are spoken....
Now at the closing of this day
I cross my heart and pray
That a promise made cannot be broken....
For in the lonely years
I found that love is the prize
And now the truth is here
I feel the tears have fallen from my eyes....
Somewhere
in the silent morning
some way out beyond the sea of blue
There's a dream that's calling
Somewhere
there's a place
for me and you.
And if love grows strong there
Let myheart belong there
May the spirit sail with you...
as I watch your love unfold
The child inside my soul
Breathes you in and hold you closer....
Now as I look into your eyes
I see the turning of the tide
And the beating of my heart surrenders....
The words are on my lips
But they are hard for me to say
My emotions are eclipsed
One single kiss could take my
breath away---
Somewhere
in the silent morning
Some way out beyond the sea of blue
There's a dream that's calling
Somewhere there is a place for me and you....
Oh me and you....
Somewhere
as the images unwind
we move in perfect time
And precious words of love are spoken....
Now at the closing of this day
I cross my heart and pray
That a promise made cannot be broken....
For in the lonely years
I found that love is the prize
And now the truth is here
I feel the tears have fallen from my eyes....
Somewhere
in the silent morning
some way out beyond the sea of blue
There's a dream that's calling
Somewhere
there's a place
for me and you.
And if love grows strong there
Let myheart belong there
May the spirit sail with you...
Remember
The moment we shared together
have passed by.
But the thought that you and I
have shared those moments always remain.
The past is gone and you can say it's dead.
But what that past has left me behind
is always in me---
The memory of the past will never die.
It's like a plastic flower
that has no fragrance
but has beauty.
It's like a plastic flower
that remains as is
and does not wither
Yes, the reflection of the past will never fade.
It's always here in me, unwithered.
Real and everlasting....
They will always live in the very corner
of my heart.
have passed by.
But the thought that you and I
have shared those moments always remain.
The past is gone and you can say it's dead.
But what that past has left me behind
is always in me---
The memory of the past will never die.
It's like a plastic flower
that has no fragrance
but has beauty.
It's like a plastic flower
that remains as is
and does not wither
Yes, the reflection of the past will never fade.
It's always here in me, unwithered.
Real and everlasting....
They will always live in the very corner
of my heart.
Against The Cruel Years!
I do not blame you,
for the moments that are gone
for the rose that has faded
for the day that is done.
I will not sight for the endearment words
you once said.
For thought you've change
you cannot withraw the lovely moments
I have spent with you.
The kindness you gave, you can't erase
my heart will keep them
with the image of your face.
Against the cruel years
I will hold the gleaming rays
of our past, to light the gloom
of some future day.
For your love, however, transient
has left with me the wonders
of fulfillment preserved
in memories...
for the moments that are gone
for the rose that has faded
for the day that is done.
I will not sight for the endearment words
you once said.
For thought you've change
you cannot withraw the lovely moments
I have spent with you.
The kindness you gave, you can't erase
my heart will keep them
with the image of your face.
Against the cruel years
I will hold the gleaming rays
of our past, to light the gloom
of some future day.
For your love, however, transient
has left with me the wonders
of fulfillment preserved
in memories...
Gabing Mapanglaw
Ang buwan ay bilog
nagniningning
makulimlim man ang gabi
pagsapit ng takim silim
tila nagaamba
ng kagimba gimbalang lagim
At saksi
sa lahat ng lagim!
Ang buwan
nagniningning sa
gabing mapanglaw.
nagniningning
makulimlim man ang gabi
pagsapit ng takim silim
tila nagaamba
ng kagimba gimbalang lagim
At saksi
sa lahat ng lagim!
Ang buwan
nagniningning sa
gabing mapanglaw.
Friday, January 20, 2006
Thursday Class in Engram1A
I was able to finish the lesson plans I have prepared for them for the entire two weeks. And I am so happy to see how they were able to progress....I plan to start our reading lessons next week and we are right on time. Next week we start reading the Little Prince. Hope then, we will be always like this...
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
My Engram 1A Class Today
I am very happy today with my class. Because, my students are very fast learner and they are very attentive. I am always up to my feet. It's such a challenge to teach them. I will look forward to meet them again next meeting.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
The Walk
As we stare into the sky
After walking for a mile
Do we dare to ask God, Why
We should start another journey?
As we stop to make time fly
Not be talking for a while
When we're hurting but we hide
Should we start another journey?
Still I pray with every sunrise
I can take these steps with you
No matter where it leads us
The Lord will see us through
I see things clearly as they are
I see how beautiful they are
By giving me a chance
To walk with you
I see that everyday is new
What lies ahead remains a mystery
But in your heart I find a clue
That someone's there for me
'Til I can start to walk again.
As we stare into our eyes
There are truths and there are lies
That we washed out in the cries
We have shared in every journey
Maybe all we have is time
That's not written just to rhyme
For this life's a constant liine
That begins another journey.
After walking for a mile
Do we dare to ask God, Why
We should start another journey?
As we stop to make time fly
Not be talking for a while
When we're hurting but we hide
Should we start another journey?
Still I pray with every sunrise
I can take these steps with you
No matter where it leads us
The Lord will see us through
I see things clearly as they are
I see how beautiful they are
By giving me a chance
To walk with you
I see that everyday is new
What lies ahead remains a mystery
But in your heart I find a clue
That someone's there for me
'Til I can start to walk again.
As we stare into our eyes
There are truths and there are lies
That we washed out in the cries
We have shared in every journey
Maybe all we have is time
That's not written just to rhyme
For this life's a constant liine
That begins another journey.
Monday, January 02, 2006
Year End Blog
JANUARY- A new start...CSB gave me my first teaching load...later the subject was cancelled due to only 7 enrollees...Bassplayer...my engagement was called off and my 5 years relationship ended...I'm SINGLE again!!!...no pain, no tears and no regrets.
FEBRUARY- Started my job hunting... Issues at SAID... went out to see my REAL world and met new people... rediscovering my 1st sign language-FSL!... Dad was diagnosed with a cysts.... a week later he was operated and the cyst was removed.... Thank God! .... Karl...
MARCH- Presented my first batch of Preschool graduates...my dream... #Chataholic...my 1st speaking engagement of the year... Nicole's 1st birthday...
APRIL- Started my own summer reading programs....had three students- Ysai, Aro and Dax... 2/3 students were successful in my program... used the money to get my own place... Gave seminar in Rdg. @ SFK school... Dad's 74th birthday... REVENGE... look for a new place...
MAY- A beautiful life!...Started my job in CSB... signed another contract with SAID... became a part time teacher... Trisha's baptisimal... Karl...
JUNE- Moved out from Dad's nest again... went back to the same old place... Xander... started my 2 jobs... had one full time tutee... enrolled in U.P.... started all over again... tough life... alone ... Father's Day... THE UNTOUCHABLE!
JULY- Became a regular chatter in mirc... Frederrick got in touch with me... strugglin'... internet connection... became an OP... #SpeakEasy...
AUGUST- Andres and I became a couple... started bloggin..."I feel so young again, even through I'm very old..."-(adapted from the music I Write the Song by Barry Manilow)... LET Exam
SEPTEMBER- my birthday... Kuya Erwin's birthday... was rehired by CSB for the 2nd term... dropped my master subject in MA... a lover's quarrel... FATS!...
OCTOBER- #SpeakEasy... back to the NEST... Deaf Convention... my SPEECH... Leo and Tess... Three's Company... Nicotine's Poem- Every Morning... Forever and For Always... Love you FOREVER... Passed the Board Exam...
NOVEMBER-Mom's birthday... wrote a tribute to my Mom... Me & Andres... started posting about Deafness...Temper!...Imagine...
DECEMBER- One year old... Broken Friendship... Finding Cathy... PINAKBET... Betrayal... Missing YOU... Xmas Party... Pls Don't Ask Me Why?... Silent Night... Enchanted Kingdom... ANDRES & ME at 4 months and still going strong...
FEBRUARY- Started my job hunting... Issues at SAID... went out to see my REAL world and met new people... rediscovering my 1st sign language-FSL!... Dad was diagnosed with a cysts.... a week later he was operated and the cyst was removed.... Thank God! .... Karl...
MARCH- Presented my first batch of Preschool graduates...my dream... #Chataholic...my 1st speaking engagement of the year... Nicole's 1st birthday...
APRIL- Started my own summer reading programs....had three students- Ysai, Aro and Dax... 2/3 students were successful in my program... used the money to get my own place... Gave seminar in Rdg. @ SFK school... Dad's 74th birthday... REVENGE... look for a new place...
MAY- A beautiful life!...Started my job in CSB... signed another contract with SAID... became a part time teacher... Trisha's baptisimal... Karl...
JUNE- Moved out from Dad's nest again... went back to the same old place... Xander... started my 2 jobs... had one full time tutee... enrolled in U.P.... started all over again... tough life... alone ... Father's Day... THE UNTOUCHABLE!
JULY- Became a regular chatter in mirc... Frederrick got in touch with me... strugglin'... internet connection... became an OP... #SpeakEasy...
AUGUST- Andres and I became a couple... started bloggin..."I feel so young again, even through I'm very old..."-(adapted from the music I Write the Song by Barry Manilow)... LET Exam
SEPTEMBER- my birthday... Kuya Erwin's birthday... was rehired by CSB for the 2nd term... dropped my master subject in MA... a lover's quarrel... FATS!...
OCTOBER- #SpeakEasy... back to the NEST... Deaf Convention... my SPEECH... Leo and Tess... Three's Company... Nicotine's Poem- Every Morning... Forever and For Always... Love you FOREVER... Passed the Board Exam...
NOVEMBER-Mom's birthday... wrote a tribute to my Mom... Me & Andres... started posting about Deafness...Temper!...Imagine...
DECEMBER- One year old... Broken Friendship... Finding Cathy... PINAKBET... Betrayal... Missing YOU... Xmas Party... Pls Don't Ask Me Why?... Silent Night... Enchanted Kingdom... ANDRES & ME at 4 months and still going strong...
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