REMEMBER THIS!

A Promise for Keeps

Session Start: Sat Oct 01 21:38:35 2005
Session Ident: Nicotine^
[21:38] ITS NOT!
[21:39] i KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[21:39] * VanillaSkies looks at you
[21:39] take a GOOD hard look at this stupid guy
[21:39] im not worthy
[21:40] im crap
[21:40] i dont even deserve your look
[21:40] why are you saying all of these?
[21:40] just tell me
[21:40] and stop playing games
[21:40] cause i am crap
[21:40] you are not
[21:40] something else
[21:40] and you tell me straight
[21:40] NOW!
[21:41] what do you want me to tell you?
[21:41] only you can answer that
[21:41] What do you need to tell me other than you are a crap
[21:42] other than you are not worthy eh?
[21:42] i love you so much but i know ill end up hurting you cause we are far away
[21:42] ohh
[21:42] you are giving up?
[21:42] you still dont know me do you?
[21:42] sexually active
[21:42] is that so?
[21:43] like the movie
[21:43] no
[21:43] 40 days and 40 nights eh
[21:43] forget that im sexually active
[21:43] andres
[21:43] im making the effort
[21:43] cathy
[21:43] dont just throw it all away
[21:44] im not trying to throw it all away
[21:44] i sometimes am like this
[21:45] i sometimes i dont feel worthy of anything
[21:45] you are always worth of everything
[21:45] you were created
[21:45] you existed for something
[21:45] the bad part is that your actually telling what i say to Guy
[21:45] with a PURPOSE!
[21:46] u tell everyone about us
[21:46] not everything
[21:46] eversince you told me to shut up
[21:46] but i was hurt with what you said earlier
[21:46] well right now guy is giving you advice about this
[21:46] no
[21:46] we stopped talking
[21:47] come on baby u dont need to lie
[21:47] im dealing this with oyou ALONE
[21:47] IM NOT LYING
[21:47] thats all i said
[21:47] to him
[21:47] stop screaming
[21:47] cuz you upset me
[21:47] as if you lack TRUST
[21:47] i DO lack trust
[21:48] you think its easy for me?
[21:48] i can see now no
[21:48] and im losing my trust as well
[21:48] you actually think having a long distance relationship is easy for me?????????
[21:48] no
[21:48] thats why i want to come over
[21:49] then come over
[21:49] andres you have to help
[21:50] im trying
[21:50] i cannot do this just by myself
[21:50] what do you need?
[21:50] invitation
[21:50] the processing of visa
[21:51] plane ticket
[21:51] so i should just open my wallet and say: voilá
[21:51] no
[21:52] we chip in
[21:52] we?
[21:52] look
[21:52] answer me
[21:52] you want me to be with you or not?
[21:53] you sure are a person who likes to pressure
[21:53] okay forget it
[21:53] if you feel pressured
[21:53] i wont pressure you
[21:53] look
[21:53] im looking
[21:53] i said before
[21:54] im in a depressed mood
[21:54] * VanillaSkies nods
[21:54] can you actully feel it?
[21:54] *actually
[21:54] i can see it
[21:54] nooo
[21:54] dont see it
[21:55] FEEL it
[21:55] i see with my eyes and feel it
[21:55] get it?
[21:55] yes
[21:55] u actually want a person like that?
[21:55] nobody is perfect
[21:55] ive had worse than you
[21:56] so dont think your worse
[21:56] or that you are good for nothing
[21:56] i have my flaws as well
[21:57] i wish i could live near by
[21:57] this is just part of it andres
[21:57] no
[21:57] ?
[21:57] im a depressed person
[21:58] proves you to be human
[21:58] no ur not getting it sweetie
[21:58] nobody ever lived without getting depressed
[21:59] you cannt always be on top
[21:59] why do you love me?
[21:59] because my heart tells me
[21:59] and
[21:59] or should i say "why do you love my text?"
[21:59] not your text
[21:59] you as a person
[22:00] you are scared of me andres?
[22:00] you cannot imagine someone is actually loving you for real?
[22:01] its alright
[22:01] i cant
[22:01] :(
[22:01] maybe when im gone you will realize
[22:01] im dead scared
[22:01] but i will be here
[22:01] when ur gone?
[22:02] i know what i feel
[22:02] and i know what i am getting myself at
[22:02] you are not the only one who is scared
[22:02] explain when ur gone?
[22:02] i cannot explain that andres
[22:02] only time will tell you
[22:03] pls do
[22:03] i have no words
[22:03] find some then
[22:03] but know and remember that I love you
[22:03] and that is all i can say
[22:03] i will be here
[22:03] no baby
[22:03] dont leave me like this
[22:03] explain
[22:04] or at least tell me ur will not do something stupid
[22:04] im still very much here andres
[22:04] listen
[22:04] good
[22:04] dont ever take your life away again
[22:04] and im never gonna take my life away again either
[22:05] it's never worth doing so
[22:05] ok baby
[22:05] i promise
[22:05] dont be a loser again
[22:05] but im pretty sure i lost you today didnt i?
[22:05] no
[22:05] or have i lost you?
[22:05] no
[22:06] alright
[22:06] start praying andres
[22:06] for?
[22:06] pls do
[22:06] talk to God
[22:06] speak to him all your fears and anger
[22:07] your hurt and pain
[22:07] ohh
[22:07] i do that
[22:07] likenow
[22:07] i try to
[22:07] nothing to be ashame or hide
[22:07] He knows all
[22:08] i told myself i m never gonna cry
[22:08] NEVER!
[22:08] and I DIDNT!
[22:08] in those 5 years
[22:08] i rarely did
[22:08] just a bit
[22:08] and when it was over
[22:08] no tears flowed
[22:08] u felt better
[22:08] YES
[22:09] i learned to accept it
[22:09] without regrets
[22:09] even when everyone knows we were planning to get married
[22:09] my boss knew
[22:09] but then it went pfff
[22:09] huh¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡
[22:09] ??????
[22:09] it didnt hurt me
[22:09] but you DO hurt me
[22:10] im sorry i hurt you nilli
[22:10] its just the bad side of me
[22:10] its alright
[22:10] not everytime
[22:10] wil be bed of roses for us
[22:10] i take every pain as a challenge
[22:10] i prefer a simple bed with just you beside me
[22:10] makes my heart fonder
[22:11] * VanillaSkies pinches your side
[22:11] BUT you DO made me feel the pain and hurt
[22:12] and what is like to love so real
[22:12] as well to laugh again...
[22:12] and be afraid
[22:12] im so scared
[22:12] so am i
[22:12] i dont know
[22:12] if we will end up together
[22:12] its ALL up to God
[22:13] indeed
[22:14] sorry about today
[22:14] its okay
[22:14] im here not just for good times
[22:14] but as well for bad and the worse to come
[22:14] will u see me go to bed today?
[22:14] yes
[22:14] of course
[22:15] ive been waiting for you
[22:15] do you love me?
[22:15] of course
[22:15] i DO!
[22:15] im stil on yahoo
[22:15] i do love you 2
[22:15] im logging
[22:15] very much
[22:15] i almost lost you today didnt i?
[22:15] give me a hug
[22:15] * Nicotine^ hugs you
[22:16] * Nicotine^ puts his two fingers on his forehead...and moves them slightly
[22:16] LOL!
[22:16] im stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[22:16] lol
[22:16] I love you andres
[22:16] i love you cathy
[22:17] :)
[22:17] No such nick
Session Close: Sat Oct 01 23:00:45 2005

posted by Skies @ 3:21 PM

letting GO!

Letting go
is just an another way
to say, that I'll always
love you so...

Loving Each Other

UNEXPRESSED love is the greatest cause of our sorrow and regrets.
We usually wait until people have died
to express their value in our lives,
to honor them publicly and
to express our LOVE for them.


-Leo Buscaglia