For you... you know who you are!

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?
or saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart
if you don't, you might break theirs

Have you ever decided not to become a couple
because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own....when you least suspect it,
or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had,
but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...
for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone
because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid...
afraid of what we don't know,
afraid of what others will think,
afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie,
the thing we fear grows stronger.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done,
or could have had.

*What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow
and you never got to tell them how you felt?
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all
and they know I love them?
*People live, people die.

And I want to tell you that you are a friend.
If you died tomorrow, you would be in my heart!!!
Would I be in yours?
Do you care about me as much as I care about you?
You might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next,
and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say,
even if I never talk to you again in my life,
you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,
I look up to you,
respect you,
and truly cherish you.

Remember, everyone needs a friend,
someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all,
just remember this and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about YOU!!!!
I care for real....
one day they’ll see,
how much you mean to me.
One day they’ll know,
how much I love you so.
One day we’ll shine,
and I will shout that you are mine.
One day we’ll b together
FOREVER & for ALWAYS...

Saturday

Shit!
do i have to always put up with this thing?
i may have no right to fret and react
but dont i have feelings too?
am i not also human?

Shit!
its Saturday,
just when the week is done.
and you end up at the end of the day
why do i have to always end up the last?

That's cause we're nothing.
Yeah, we are nothing together
nothing goes between us.
How ironic we are now strangers

This had to stop.
I leave this place
silently

You don't exist!

Heaven

I have changed my blog addy and even the title for some reasons. First, I feel its time I should make some changes. Second, its because some factors hinders me from putting my thoughts and feelings openly, knowing that some people knows the link to my site. I feel I dont have the privancy to express myself without being judged or criticized. It makes me feel limited. Althought I know that having my blog open to the public for viewing is something I took as a risk. People would have viewed this blog because i made it public. If i wanted this to be free from the prying eyes of critics then I shouldn't be blogging in the first place especially not on internet. However, the fact I am blogging online being criticized or ridiculed by others is something that I cannot avoid because I made this blog known therefore anybody can view this. What I just don't want is some people who I do not want to read my blog because I do not want them to be in anyway part of my blogging should they read and make a comment. I simply dont want them to do anything with this or my life. I just want these people to lost track of this site so I can live my life and set this blog the way I want it to be. Third, this is my blog and I do what I want to do with it. I write what I want to write without the fear of being criticized or talked about by others. Maybe, if other people who view my blog talks about me, wont hurt at all because I don't even know them but people who I know and who talks and comment whether its posted or not is something that affects me and stop me from expressing what I want... Like in society, we people are often conscious of what others say, it bothers us, it hinders us and makes us hesistant until we finally lost the heart and abondone what we used to love doing. What was supposed to help us are now pulling us down. This shouldn't be the case with my blogging. As one of my chat friend told me before, "You blog and do things for yourself and not for others. Your happiness doesn't have to depend on anyone. You dont need to worry what others would say, to hell with them anyway.." Yeah, and to hell with you who reads this blog if you have the tendency to criticize and say unpleasant things then you know you are the one person I would want to erase in my world...