Heaven

I have changed my blog addy and even the title for some reasons. First, I feel its time I should make some changes. Second, its because some factors hinders me from putting my thoughts and feelings openly, knowing that some people knows the link to my site. I feel I dont have the privancy to express myself without being judged or criticized. It makes me feel limited. Althought I know that having my blog open to the public for viewing is something I took as a risk. People would have viewed this blog because i made it public. If i wanted this to be free from the prying eyes of critics then I shouldn't be blogging in the first place especially not on internet. However, the fact I am blogging online being criticized or ridiculed by others is something that I cannot avoid because I made this blog known therefore anybody can view this. What I just don't want is some people who I do not want to read my blog because I do not want them to be in anyway part of my blogging should they read and make a comment. I simply dont want them to do anything with this or my life. I just want these people to lost track of this site so I can live my life and set this blog the way I want it to be. Third, this is my blog and I do what I want to do with it. I write what I want to write without the fear of being criticized or talked about by others. Maybe, if other people who view my blog talks about me, wont hurt at all because I don't even know them but people who I know and who talks and comment whether its posted or not is something that affects me and stop me from expressing what I want... Like in society, we people are often conscious of what others say, it bothers us, it hinders us and makes us hesistant until we finally lost the heart and abondone what we used to love doing. What was supposed to help us are now pulling us down. This shouldn't be the case with my blogging. As one of my chat friend told me before, "You blog and do things for yourself and not for others. Your happiness doesn't have to depend on anyone. You dont need to worry what others would say, to hell with them anyway.." Yeah, and to hell with you who reads this blog if you have the tendency to criticize and say unpleasant things then you know you are the one person I would want to erase in my world...