Wise Guys

We met the Wise Guys band noong birthday ni tita Joyce. Wala kaming magawa that time and nagyaya mag-good time si tita Joyce, siya daw ang taya! So, we went around Quezon City looking for a place, preferably karaoke bar but we end up in Quezon Avenue and saw Chatterbox. From the entrance pa lang nagtitili kaming lahat when we saw puro gwuapo!!!

The band played several songs. Really gwuaaaappooooo sila! Lalu na si Jay! After a few songs one of them asked who among the audience is celebrating their birthday. They were offering a requested song and the band will sing it for the celebrant, whatever song.… The place was small and there was a common washing area for both the customers and performers at doon namin sila personally na meet sa backstage near the wash room. We all had a crush pa nga kay Jam. Sigaw ng sigaw si tita Joyce while si Ruth naman titig na titig kay Paul. Hahaha!

I don’t remember na how we got to be their fans or followers. Basta ang alam ko me and Ruth would watch them during our free time or whenever we are both stressed and we need to unwind. First Ruth and tita Joyce followed the band perform somewhere in Ortigas then next, ako na lang and si Ruth ‘cuz tita Joyce left for the states. Ruth and I tracked the band in 8th Days and in Pueblo aside their performance in Chatterbox meron din sila sa may Malate. However, only tita Joyce was able to see them perform in Malate before she left ‘cuz the place is so far and you need to have a car to get around the area. Anyway, come to think of it, dalawa kaming DEAF ni Ruth and yet it doesn’t stop us from going to the bars to watch them sing and dance amidst the swarming and screaming girls. But I think our Deafness has some advantage ‘cuz it made the guys curious about us and that curiousity lead to closeness and we all became good friends… Lahat sila galante, not just because they are performers and we are their customers but they are really down to earth. As we get to know them more, we started getting VIP treatment every time we come to watch them. Si Guy or Paul mostly are the ones who would accommodate us in the guest list. Minsan si Jam or Jay…. I remember I wasn’t used pa nga being around them all kasi they are all malambing and I almost insulted Jay with his sunglasses. Kasi biruin mo ang dilim dilim na nga dun sa bar tapos naka dark sunglasses pa siya! But I think he took my advise naman at di siya na-offend kasi the next time we saw him he changed his sunglasses to yellow. And all of us were curious how it would look around if you wear it kasi alam naming it’s bright. So, we’ve been taking turns trying his sunglasses every time they will have a break. Hahahaha!

We followed this group I think for a year or two and at one time during my birthday and we were at the bar, the group were performing a rock song and suddenly Guy pulled me up on stage and danced with me. Much to my surprise! Ang daming girls nakatingin sa aming dalawa and he didn’t let me go. I was blushing! Tawa ng tawa si Ruth. When they had their break, Guy asked me: “Anong sayaw yung ginawa mo? Wala akong alam na ganoon ah!” Laughter. Then he took my hand and sang my favorite song: SABI MO! He even wrote the lyrics for me and I think to this day I still have those notes.

The band was becoming famous at the time we met them. They would sometimes perform on television and we would watch them and afterwards text them. Sometimes, Ruth and I would race text them after school and we would end up screaming. Si Guy, Jay and Paul and madalas naming ka text noon kasi si Jam taken eh! May girlfriend na! But nevertheless, Jam also text us pa minsan-minsan. At one time I was not able to go with Ruth ‘cuz I wasn’t feeling well. Ruth came home at 3am. Jay brought her to our dormitory in his car. I wanted to scream when I found out! I could have gotten better instantly. LOL!

So many things happened as time goes. There was even a time they asked us to go with them in Baguio but I refused and Ruth wanted to go but later she didn’t. When I moved in a condo with different friends, Ruth stayed in the old dormitory and sometimes she still goes out alone. I don’t know when she stopped watching them…. The last time I watched The Wise Guys perform was in 8th Days. Guy was going to retire soon and put up his own restaurant somewhere near Ultra. We met his mom and gave his ex-girlfriend, Anna her late birthday present. (a Parker red pen). Anna is also their manager. She too, became close to us…. I don’t know what become of the group after that last day I watched them perform except that Guy did leave the band and started his restaurant. He even invited us at the opening but we weren’t able to come because of the short notice. I will always remember them even though we don’t see or get in touch with each other anymore.

Here are some pictures which I found hidden in my closet. These were taken in 8th Days noong birthday ni Guy.

This was taken after Guy pulled me up on stage and danced with me. I still look so flushed because I was so elated! Didn’t expect he will drag me up there, talaga!

Look at Guy smile o! Ang laki ng ngiti niya
kasi dinalhan namin siya ng Dulcinea cake!











Me and Ruth. Jam can be seen on stage at the background, addressing the audience for their next song.





Jay and Me. Look at Jay’s sunglasses, that is a very cool shade!





Me, Anna, Ruth and Guy.





Paul, me, Jay and Ruth before the Wise Guys’ second performance.

Meetings

Meeting dito, meeting doon! Katatapos lang ng isang meeting may kasunod na namang isa pang meeting at may klase pa ako pagkatapos o di kaya pagkatapos ng klase ko may meeting naman akong kasunod. Hindi na natapos ang mga meetings! Haay, naku daaaay!!!

Talaga these days, puno ng meetings. For two weeks may mga naka line up na meetings and the next week may mga meetings pa rin ako. Hectic ang schedule! This week lang nga ilang meetings na ang nakaligtaan ko dahil I have classes in between those meetings. I wasn't even able to attend the 1st meeting with the MV group and when I attended the 2nd MV group meeting last Friday, I have to leave in the middle of the discussion naman kasi may next class ako. Sabi nga ni Rochelle, " Aalis ka na? Ano masasabi mo or suggestion before you leave?" Say ko, " Yun na nga! Kung ano yung comment ko kanina!" "Yun lang!?" ang gulat na tila angal at tanong ni Rochelle. " Di lang yun, may sinabi pa ako kay Sir John" Siyang tingin sa akin ni Sir "Isa lang?!" "Spelling lang 'tong sinabi mo eh?" "Uy, di ahh! may sinabi pa akong comment ni reject naman!" "Okay sige labas na!" at tuluyan akong tumayo at niligpit yung mga papers na ginagawa ko at the same time of the discussion kasi for grading sheets yun at DUE lahat the same day!!!

Makakalusot na sana ako kasi di ko halos masyadong magets yung topic ng usapan nila dahil wala nga ako noong first group meeting nila. Kaso, bigla ako tinarayan ni Miguelin " Aalis ka na? Wala ka talagang silbi!" Batukan ko nga at sabihan ng " HOY! biik na baboy, sipaiin kita dyan! sinabi ko na comment ko at choice ko ha!" Alam na nila yun!" Tawanan.

So, nag class ako fron 2:30 to 5:30pm at di pa matapos tapos sa kakatanong ang ibang students halos 6:00pm na ng magsimula ako ng next class for Rizal. I notice may mga messages sa fone ko but minabuti kong mamaya na lang basahin. Usually wala naman masyadong importante who will be texting me at this time 'cuz I'm at work.... Pero ng tiningnan ko yung mga message after one hour and half of class discussion----EEEEKKK!!!!! May meeting pala kami with the DEAN!!!! Nagmamadali na naman ako at maaga ko dinismiss ang students ko, NAMAAAAN!!!

When I got to the meeting kanina pa nila ako hinihintay but okay naman they saw me pala na nagkaklase kanina after my English class. WOW! free dinner in this meeting hehehe! Pero dyahi ang daming meeting na halos nakaligtaan ko at muntik-muntikan di sinipot. Marami din sa kanila who were texting me during class pa lang informing or looking for me dahil may meeting kami. Haay! So the next week na may meeting I made it a point na huwag kalimutan but guess what happened?!??!!! Halos karamihan sa mga nakaset na meeting eh, na CANCEL!

shees! ang galing ano?! Kung kelan you make it a point or just when you are looking forward, ready and alert saka naman nagtampo at na-move to another date ang mga meetings, SUS!

Sabi nga ni Miguelin, "Ayan kasi! sige, mag-meeting ka mag-isa mo!"---Miguel, BADING! Grrrr!!!

For You To Be Happy!

If yOu need sOmeOne tO fill the empty space in yOur heart
tell me and i'l gladly step inside..
but if yOu need that space fOr sOmeOne else
just tell me..
i'l step Out just fOr yOu tO be happy.


-Special Thanks to BatGurl

Between Your Two Eyes

Do you know the relation between your two eyes?

They blink together,
move together,
cry together,
see things together
and sleep together.

Even though they never see each other....

FRIENDSHIP should be just like that!!!


- "WORLD'S BEST FRIEND WEEK!"

Who's your Best Friend?
I can name a few but they are WORTH than gold!

Friendship huh!?!

where's a friend when u need one huh?
well they say that friendships are proven in time of need.

-Anonymous

What Kind of Books To READ?!?

I think we ought to read only the kind of books that wound and stab us. If the book we are reading doesn't wake us up with a blow on the head, what are we reading it for? ...we need the books that affect us like a disaster, that grieve us deeply, like the death of someone we loved more than ourselves, like being banished into forests far from everyone, like a suicide. A book must be the axe for the frozen sea inside us.


-- FRANZ KAFKA

r3dux said...

Doesn't always matter if you follow me,

but it does matter, to me, what you think of me.

The TROUBLE with Patrick...

The trouble with you is that you think you're too good for all the conventions of society. You probably think you're too good for me too. Well, do you know what you are? You're a frustrated, unhappy, disillusioned, undisciplined, maladjusted young man!

Thank You

I met JV when I was in my pre-college days. I was 20 years old and he was 25. We have known each other for 15 years and his eldest brother became one of my closest friends. Here is our story that I have written as a poem…

JV, this is for you.

Thank you.

Thank you, for everything first
from the time you saw me
and looked at me from a distance.

Thank you,
for the curiosity that got the better of you
enough to muster the courage and not let the chance to slip away.

Thank you,
for taking the first step of breaking the ice.

Thank you,
for the very first time we met,
for the warm welcome you gestured
despite of my somewhat cold and unlikely response.

Thank you,
for all the time you took out
the effort to share about the ART of your world.

Thank you,
for the kind bold personality that you are,
for being talkative until I was caught off-guard
with something you said, that I have to grin in spite of myself.

Thank you,
for the first joyful laughter I had since,
I was temporarily shut out of my world.
Because from then on I learned to smile again, laugh whole heartedly,
And live a very carefree life.

Thank you,
for this new found freedom and discovery of my new self.

Thank you,
for trying to keep in touch
after we’ve gone on our own separate ways and worlds.

Thank you,
for the kind of life you choose to take
which indeed proved that the world can be quite small
for circumstance and coincidence to happen.


Thank you,
for the sweet memories of the second time we met.

Thank you,
for all the patience and risks you took and endured
just to keep me company while you were at work.

Thank you,
for sharing your views and opinions
as well as other ideas that made me look at certain points
and aspects in life which I almost failed to see.
Eventually, it changed some of my negative outlook
into a broader perspectives.

Thank you,
for taking a good interest to all the things I said
despite the barriers of communication.
For putting them not just in your mind
but as well as in your heart, in your life
and perhaps, even in your soul.

Thank you,
for enjoying to learn my language,
It was such a sincere gesture and respect.

Thank you,
for all the sense of humor
without making me lost my sanity and composure.
For giving me the opportunity to add some more wits
to myself through your own unique example.

Thank you,
for the great vibes we have shared
for that fleeting moments of our lives.

Thank you,
for all the promises you made
though you never kept them.
Because it definitely taught me a good lesson
and self discipline to keep my own words!

Thank you,
for the long passing of time and days
for all the blessings I have learned to count.

Thank you,
for never failing to remember me,
for all the same friends we have
no matter how they have come and gone.

Thank you,
for the short lapse
for the re-awakenings of your memory.

Thank you,
for everything and for all the things you never did.


Thank you,
for the (awkward) third time we met.

Thank you,
for the longing gaze
for the eyes that never fail
for the memories that never fades.

Thank you,
for counting the days with me
for all the stunning surprises that each new day brings

Thank you,
for another day,
when the sunset is up in the skies
for the wind that blows
for painting the world anew.

Thank you,
for the first phone call I had
within the long boring period of weeks,
to the last coin drop to the booth.

Thank you,
for the moment of truth
for the laughters, smiles, tears and pain.

Thank you,
after the long drought that caused the earth to be barren
for in the end, the rain poured down
and buds appeared, and the flowers bloomed.


Thank you,
for the fourth time we met
beneath the wonderful sunshine of the summer’s day.

Thank you,
again for the moment of truth.
for the words you spoke
for the thoughts you have had
for the kindness you chose to do
for the sense of pride and
the sensibility for prejudice.

Thank you,
for all the days of thoughts and longing;
of the present time or for days
when we chose for day to be a day;
to be no more than what it is today.

Thank you, thank you.

Thank you,
for another year,
for the dreams of a castle in the sand
for all the tenderness of traveling through time….

I have finally found a peace of mind.

Thank you and goodbye.



This poem was written sometime in November 1995.

Only Love Can Do!

sometimes, even with modern technology and newly discovered vaccine or antibiotics....still....sometimes, it doesn't help to cure what ails the heart....but only LOVE can do!!!

Swimming with ENGRAM II-B

Aha! ... finally got these pictures from my students. These were taken during the last day of first term, semestrial break ... it was taken last September 11, 2007.... hmmm! sounds like it rings a bell! AHEM!

Playing the Merry-Go-Round

one, two , three....Ahhhh!!!

Me, getting punished after the deep plunge game. I failed to pass underneath the four students. Look at them cheering, obviously pleased to see me get punished for a change. LOL!

Having a serious sessions with the students in the pool....

My Last GRIEVANCE!!!

Playing cat and dog in the pool. Look how much Eric was having a hard time with Raffy. HA HA HA!

Then Cat-Cat next... hehehe!

[Special^K] said...

\\-(.. I've killed a million petty souls // But I couldn't kill you // I've slept so long without you ..)-//

Table Tennis Game

Yesterday, I played table tennis in school.

Pleasant Dreams....

Lately, I've been having so much pleasant dreams in the mornings. Usually I find something funny either I am watching people or I am in a funny conversation with somebdy. It makes me smile and laugh in my dreams. It was heart warming 'cuz I am having a good laugh. The feeling is so wonderful, light and cheery...what is even more funny is because I wake up to find myself grinning or smiling and worst, sometimes, I would wake up laughing! It's so odd and I was like D-HUH?! but then, I am glad I'm having these nice dreams instead of the terrifying ones that I used to have every three in the morning. My nightmares usually happens around that time but I am not having them nowadays. Although, there are nights when sleep just won't come. I have to stay awake, read books or stay online and chat.... I haven't blogged lately 'cuz I don't have much time. I've been too busy with other things, mainly reading books or magazines. I guessed, I am getting hooked on my reading habit again---- thanks to Mark!

So, last pleasant dream was something like me watching two popular local singers (Pops & Martin) with them singing and fooling around then suddenly Martin leaned his hand roughly on Pops while she was singing and ya can see on her face the look she gave Martin and Martin suddenly realize the camera was on focus and apologetically wrapped his arms around Pops shoulders and massaged her where it hurts. I find it funny but I am sure it ain't funny for those who will read this. It's not like I am their faithful fan. LOL! NO!!!! but I did wake up grinning then eventually, I realize I was actually laughing.... mwuahahahaha! I also notice that this usually happens after my roomie goes out of the room and takes a bath. I knew she just went to the bathroom 'cuz I usually wake up when she takes her stuff from her cabinet before going out of the room 'cuz she always hit the foot of my bed and I open my eyes a bit then I fall back to sleep right away....I like the mornings because it's so pleasant and the bed is still cool. It feels so good to stay and go on sleeping. Every morning is a fresh new day!

Peeve's Song

When there's strife and trouble
Call Garfskies` and she'll make DOUBLE!

Farewell

As I fiNisheD rEaDing tHe HarRy POtter boOk 6th (The Half-BlOod-PriNce). I cAn't hElp bUt feEl SaD. My fRieND wAs rIghT, tHe bOoK wAs SaD aNd it's TrUe DumbLedOre, ThE mOst pOweRfUl wiZard and HeaDmaSter of HOgwartZ SchoOl Of WitchCrafT and WiZaRdy, diEd, LeaVing HarRy all alOne nOw tO faCe VoldermOrt in ThE neXt and FinaL boOk ---The DeaDly HaLlOws.

Harry Potter- Book 6th

It's SNAPE! He is the Half-Blood-Prince! the murderer! TRAITOR! HALFblood!
He killed Dumbledore!!!

Verso Español

Si alguna vez la vida te maltrata
acuerdade de mi,

que no puedo cansarse de esperar,

aquel que no se cansa de mirarte



-Luis Garcia de Montero (Granada 1961)

Silent

There's still a romantic element in knowing that I love someone but I'm choosing to do the right thing by staying.... silent.

Birthday Greetings!

Joined channel #DewDropInn* Topic is '(lokicat) 4HAPPY BIRTHDAY to our DDI kitten, 7,1GARFIELD! 10Lots of love, kisses and cuddles from the whole channel!'* Set by X on Fri Sep 28 09:06:30

HaPpY BiRtHdAy VanillaSkies!!! (alias Garfield`)

Thanks God, for another year in my life!
:)
-Nilla.

Forgiving

@The-Babe: "Garfield`, Love Means Never Having to Say You're Sorry."

Why cant it be....mine?

i know you'll be the sun in somebody else's sky, but why, why, why cant it be, why cant it be mine?

Peace

It's so peaceful and calm as if all is right with the world when he is asleep. But when he gets online, its a tragedy!


-Button
On "The-Who-Must-NOT-Be-Named" come back at #DarkCharms

I'm Going To Paint Again...

All You've Got!

Is this really what you want? Or are you just sticking with it now 'cuz its all you've got? That's it, I think you're just sticking with me because, I'm all you've got!

The journey to God
Starts with one small step
At a time He doesn’t expect you
To run a mile, but HE promises
To give you the strength to go
The distance…

Face Value

Her Inspiration Today: Men are difficult to figure out because they often don't know what they themselves want. So just give up, and take them at FACE VALUE!

Semestrial Break is HERE!!!

When I Fall In Love....Will it be forever???

Mammoth&Button

A girl's heart is a deep ocean of secrets

-Rose Dawson
TITANIC

I Know You

We were gathered in a big circle. All of us who are working in this school. The facilitator of the seminar asked each one of us how long have we been teaching? Some had been here for many years, they were the pioneers.While others have been here for two, three, five and eight years or so. We also have some new people who just joined the field of education. Fresh graduates or a new recruit I must say. It shows the eagerness on their face, the desire to teach and prove themselves. It's thrilling!

We were asked to look at one another for a brief moment then, we are asked how long have we known the person who sits beside us. Each of us talked about how much we know, how little or know nothing at all of the person sitting on our sides. I sat between Addie and Jane. Jane spoke first about me. She said I'm a very noisy person. LOUD! I interrupted her saying: "Well what do you expect from a Deaf?" Everyone laughed. She went on saying how much she learned from me and is thankful for the kindness I gave. She said other things and finally added that should ever I get married, I shouldn't forget to invite her. I grinned and would have wanted to say, "yeah, dream on!" but I kept the thought to myself. I stood up, it was my turn next. As I spoke, I looked at her half grinning and half smiling. I started by saying, "I've known Jane when she first came to school as a teacher aide. She had been with me for two years. She is a shy woman and sometimes unsure of herself. She is the kind of person who would be most willing to help you if you ask her provided you pay for her snack and fare." Laughter and she hits me. "But she has a true heart and a passion to teach the Deaf children." Next, I spoke about Addie. Addie and I have been friends for like ages. We met when I was just in my sophomore in college and she was our note-taker and sometimes interepreter for mass and program. Addie and I became classmates when she took the same course I ventured after finishing a pre-certificate course in computer. Our friendship grew stronger and she knows me inside and out. She is like a mentor other than a friend, classmate and colleague. She is there for me whenever I needed help when it comes to fashion, work, gimmicks and of course, BOYS! ;D When I was finish, I sat on my chair and waited for Addie. She didnt stood up but instead galanced at me with a nice smile, the kind you would see when a good friend smiles fondly of you, pleased you didn't put her to shame for what you really knew about her. Hahaha! Anyway, she said it was true we know each other that much and aside from our other close friends (Maya and Jo). She went on saying how she is like a mother to me and how sometimes we end up argueing due to our different likes and dislikes or sometimes we clash because of my being persistent. She admires me for that though and wishes me to keep doing my best. Jo sat next to her and she spoke how many years she had known her. They have been much together as colleagues and friends longer than me and Maya. She knew a lot about Jo from her likes and dislikes and what is her weakness and strong points and how she would react, think and deal with her job and other people. .... Most of us said nice things and little was said about embrassing situation, some were for laughs.

The facilitator then gave us some paper with questions to answer. The questions wasn't difficult at all. It asked the usual stuff like what does your friend likes and dislikes? what is her favorite color or how do you think she will react to situation and what will be her choice of things, her taste and other preference, etc...The list was short as it asked us to describe only three people whom we think we know too well. Of course, we four (Addie, Maya, Jo and I) wrote each other's name. When we were finish, we were asked to share our answer. Then the person we thought we knew very well answered the same question to see if our answers matched. Too our surprise, we found out we scored low except for Maya and Addie. their score on each other wasn't bad. Mine wasn't too bad about Maya. The facilitator explained to us that sometimes, the people who we thought we know very well, are actually the people we know so little about. "Like an opponent in a battle, you should not over estimate nor underestimate your enemy." We thought we may know people who spend their lives with us from Monday to Friday or the people who live with us in one roof, it could be your husband or wife, your brothers and sisters, your parents and grandparents or your bf and gf. But the painful truth is we dont know them at all, like a perfect stranger! Because we tend to take them for granted in our lives and we tend to put off things for them, thinking that this person is always there or will be there anyway and you will see that person when you go back to work. Or you can put off a lunch gathering with the family thinking you will see them anyway, when you get home or at breakfast....

I recall when I was in that seminar,what the facilitator told us struck me hard... Now, just this morning, I was talking to someone and this person saw the reaction on my face and told me he knows and he can read me because he can see my face. I looked at the monitor of my pc and thought about what he said for a brief second and I thought also about what another friend told me last night at work about knowing me to well. How my answers showed on my face and the way I smile or laugh....I've been very happy lately because I found my freedom once again. And I have my Dad beside me. Even though sometimes, I wish I am not so stuck with work. I want to find some time out and spend it with my father, away from all these things that are happening to me. Away from the madness of the city and work. Away from the sorrow I once dealt with for such a long time. Yes, I have finally destroyed the chains that once binds me...."Your happiness will also be my happiness wherever that may be and with whoever with...." I am thankful that in the past I have memories although not all have been pleasant but I don't recall them now. What I can only recall are the good ones. The happy ones that taught me a lot of things. Something I can benefit from and add some more wit in me....So, when I look in the mirror now and I see this face, whose eyes have failed to reach that glint, but I see something else now.... As I look closer, I see someone familiar, someone whose face is no longer a cast of shadow....I see this face....this face that I long missed....the face who I used to be and who I wanted to be....I see myself now, smiling and ready to take the world again! :)

DISCRIMINATORY APPRECIATION

1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. You are special and unique.

8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look.

11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
~ Source unknown

The Greatest Glory in Life

Never
get discouraged
when things
go beyond
your expectations,

Always
remember that
the greatest
glory in life
is NOT winning!

but
rising
every time
we fall!

A Heart That TRULY Cares

GOD gives US
a loving
spirit
so
WE can be
a better
person;

Not just
gifted
with
a mind
that can
understand,
but
with a
HEART
that
TRULY
CARES....

Remembering Nilla (2005-2007)

Life is what we make it...

It may be too short

or way too rough

but rest assured that God is watching you!

The-A-Team!

Find out which one is my foot or shoe?!?....Write your answer in the comment post.

The Lord's Plan

Whenever you
don't UNDERSTAND
what's happening
in your LIFE
you just have
to close
your eyes

Take deep
breath
and say,

"LORD,
I know
its your PLAN,
I put
my TRUST
in your
HANDS...

Lookin At?!?

CrazyAway: hangman u are seeing it all
HangMan: indeed
tell me from where
[00:17] the ONE! HangMan quick question to ask ya dude, when creating flash websites what program you use?
[00:22] * G` looks
[00:22] * CrazyAway looks at G` to see what the eck they lookin at :P
[00:22] lol
[00:22] nope
[00:22] to see what daddy will say
[00:22] LOL
[00:23] CrazyAway, making a porn site?
[00:23] looooooooooool
[00:23] hahahahaha
[00:23] nah
[00:23] well
 [00:23] * G` giggles and points her spoon at CrazyAway
[00:23] aha
[00:23] aha!
[00:23] hahahahaa
[00:23] guilty
[00:23] * Joins: agrigata (~abc@89-252.netrun.cytanet.com.cy)
[00:23] i wouldnt mind makin one ;)
[00:23] looooooool
[00:24] see!
[00:24] CrazyAway, I'm sure you wouldnt lol
[00:24] ladies only though
[00:24] :P
[00:25] hahahaha
[00:25] daddy
[00:25] * G` pushes HangMan to the main channel gently
[00:26] CrazyAway is asking ya a question
[00:26] * CrazyAway wonders if HangMan had 1 glass too many wine
[00:26] L\
[00:26] :\
[00:26] he was giving me advice
[00:26] lol
[00:26] hehe
[00:26] I see
[00:26] :o
[00:26] * Joins: BANKSY (~notteling@82.33.148.14)
[00:26] oh here is another
 [00:26] prodigal child
[00:26] lol
[00:27] jk
[00:27] yo
[00:27] :)
[00:27] * The-Babe sets mode: +v BANKSY
[00:27] andy CrazyAway is back
[00:27] BANKSY, sup hobo? lol
[00:28] * Joins: Rosy78 (~Ros78@Ros78.users.undernet.org)
[00:29] * G` laughs still holding her spoon and nursing her bowl of salad

A Heaven With YOU...

Whenever I look up in the skies, I see the beauty and glory of God. The multitude blessings and love He has bestowed even before I came to see the light of the world...Sometimes, memories flashes across the rainbow and I sense a great kind of longing to be at peace in the place He has reserved for me....One day, in time, I know I will be there--- Up in the Skies....

Labor Day!
-Except that I’m not on labor, I’m home at Dad’s on vacation! Hehehe!

CAKE?!?

Today, my dad and I were together and he told me something very funny about my brother Steff, whom I fondly call “Panget” (ugly!). Dad and I were on our way home from a meeting, when he told me the story how my brother went home the day after we had dinner on the night of my father’s birthday. Steff visited them unexpectedlyand went straight in the kitchen to open the fridge. When he didn’t see what he was looking for he asked my brother Ferdie “Where is the CAKE?” Ferdie grinned and told him to ask Dad. So, Steff went inside the room and asked my father. Dad told him the cake is gone ‘cuz they ate it last night. Steff was in disbelief that he asked for the box and Dad said he threw it already and too bad that Steff wasn’t home last night. I laughed very hard and Dad was also laughing as he told me the story. TRUST my brother Steff on this! HAHAHAHA!

Dad at 76!

Wow! Birthday ni Daddy! At eto ang nangyari, nagplano ako gamitin yung credit card ko para maibili ko siya ng cake kaso nag-text si “Panget” at ang sabi kakain daw kami sa labas at chip in daw kami sa gastos. Ano?!? Credit card na lang nga gagamitin ko pambili ng cake chip in pa kami sa labas! Text ko siya at sinabi ko plano ko at mas mainam naman kung sa bahay na lang kasi at least marami maihahanda kesa kung kakain lang sa labas, mas magastos. Kaso nagpupumilit so sabi ko sige basta CAKE lang offer ko!

We planned to meet in SM Megamall at 6pm pero later on mukhang malabo na kaya minabuti ko na lang umuwi; cake o walang cake! When I got home, sabi ko kay kuya Ferdie, bibili kaming 2 ng cake gagamitin ko credit card pero sabi niya huwag na at kakain daw kami sa labas bilin ni Steff (Panget). Kaya sabi ko kay Daddy, tomorrow ko na siya ibibili ng cake para sa kanya lang yun sa bahay at huwag niya sasabihin kay Panget. Sama-sama kaming lahat nagpunta sa SM Megamall. Ako, si Daddy, Kuya Ferdie, Nics, Kuya Ed and his 2 kids…. Pagdating namin ang tagal naming naghintay kay Steff, ang "panget" na yun! Maasim pa ang mukha ng dumating kasi text daw ako ng text! Anyway, we ate in Cabalen. At pag-upo na pag-upo ko tinananong ni "Don Panget" nasaan daw ang cake? Sabi ko nasa bahay! At nagalit. Bakit di ko daw dinala? LOL! Hinila ako ni Dad at may binulong, sabi sa akin ni Daddy may 'period' daw si Steff. Hehehe! Anyway, we had a nice dinner and we strolled around the mall after ‘cuz my niece Nicole doesn’t want to go home yet. Nicole was so quiet while we walked around. She held onto my hand with her head bent… We took a taxi and they dropped me in my place. I kissed my Dad on the cheek and told him, “Dad, don’t forget 7+6 is equal to 76!" :D My Dad laughed and bade me to go inside and they left.

Dad, Happy Happy Birthday and may you have many many more to come. God BLESS you Dad! Love yah!!!

Garfield` the MAJESTIC Cat of Dewdropinn

* Brisvegas strokes Garfield`

Garfield`: :)
Brisvegas: prrr my little putty cat
Garfield`: meow meow
Brisvegas: aww milk for you
Garfield`:naaah rootbeer pls!
Brisvegas: lol u r the real Garfield`
Garfield`: :)
Brisvegas: hehehehe

* Garfield` swats Brisvegas

Brisvegas: a cat to watch footy with yee haa
Garfield`: oh cme on Jon
Garfield`: good thinking
Brisvegas: mmmmm
Garfield`: ???????
Brisvegas: hows that
Garfield`: now where is that Pan "ODIE"?
Pangea: ^_^
Garfield`: aha

* Garfield` kicks Pan wake up Odie you lazy dog

Brisvegas: brb looking fo rmy socks Garfield`!!!!

* Garfield` runs away with the socks
* Garfield` rolls the socks into a ball and plays with it
* Garfield` kicks the ball before Brisvegas could get to it
* Brisvegas trips over the socks
* Garfield` runs ahead of Brisvegas triping him

Garfield`: hahahaha
Brisvegas: damn OUCH!

* Garfield` runs again with the socks
* Brisvegas gets a mop

* Joins: mira_myx (~ai@222.126.62.34)

Garfield`: catch me if you can meow mewo
Brisvegas: looooool

* Brisvegas pokes Garfield` with da mop

Garfield`: ack
Garfield`: MEOWRRRR

* The-Babe sets mode: +v mira_myx

Brisvegas: its your worst hairy nightmare
:P

* Garfield` throws the sock to Brisvegas hitting him on the nose

Garfield`: there have your stinky socks

* Brisvegas gets blinded and runs into the fridge

Garfield`: hahahahahaha

* Garfield` roflol
* Garfield` watches Brisvegas goes BOIIINNKK!!!!

Garfield`: bwuhahahahaha!

* Garfield` roflol and pointing at Brisvegas

Garfield`: :D

* Brisvegas throws Garfield`'s milk dish at him well i was lying in it :p

Garfield`: HIM??????????
Garfield`: looooooooooool

* Garfield` kicks the milk dish and hits Brisvegas at the back of his head

Garfield`: wake up BrisvegasJON

* Brisvegas falls in odies food bowl

Garfield`: im NO HE cat
Brisvegas: man im getting dished here
Garfield`: hahaha

* Garfield` runs to pet Brisvegas

Garfield`: hugs BrisvegasJON
Garfield`: XP

* Brisvegas wakes up with Garfield` and Odie licking his face

Brisvegas: :)
Brisvegas: end of movie

Seminar on Women in Crisis

I’m staying here in Mapayapa Village, Quezon City. This is the same place where I attended my college retreat before. However, I am not here on a retreat but on a seminar on Women in Crisis. As one of the Board of Trusty of a Deaf organization called Filipino Deaf Women Health and Crisis Center in the Philippines., I had to part take in this three day seminar. Everything is FREE! From our transportation expenses, lodging, food and materials necessary to use during the seminar. We also have a certificate of attendance after the training.

When I first joined the organization, I had no idea what Jen and Flor were talking about. Even Rachel who tried to explain what the organization is all about could not help me clearly understand the purpose. So they told me to come and see for myself. I thought about it for a bit and maybe it would be better to come with them and forget about my date on that day. So, I went despite on the way my date was calling me on my cellphone and asking where I am. Well, to hell with him! I decide it will be worth going to this organization and become a part of it than go out with the guy who is actually a two-timer! The girls and I went to a place near Edsa, where they were having the very first meeting of the organization. It was so surprising who are supporting and members of this organization. Some of my colleagues are members and a few others I know who does incredible work on Deaf organizations. Even Dr. Martinez is part of the organization…. In the beginning we would meet every first Saturday to discuss plans and other agenda. At first we have no place to meet and we would just meet in Starbucks Coffee Shops and later I volunteered to have the meeting in my place until they found an area in Philippines Federation of the Deaf‘s office. Raffy the former president of PFD helped us organize our meeting when we moved in. The organization’s first plan is to organize a seminar hence we are here in Mapayapa Village, today… I shared a room with Flor and across our room is Jen and a hearing person from another organization who also support Abused Women and Children’s group.
The seminar is a very enriching experience. I gained a lot of insight and what I should do in such cases of rape and abuse. I also learned and understood the laws now including the new ones that were passed or approved in he Senate bill… I cannot say or go much in details of what we had discussed here as it should be highly confidential. What I cannot forget though was the open discussion and in the end we were given some important copies of documents that we will need in advocating Women’s Rights and in helping victims of rape and abuse.

Dinner at Italianni’s

After we distributed the Academic Performance Report during the Parents and Teachers’ conference, my two colleagues and I decided to go out; have dinner and watch a movie in Glorietta. We left after we addresse the parents’ concerns regarding their child’s performance in school. There was still an ongoing talk when we left by sneaking out one by one, pretending we are hungry and will just grab a bite in the canteen. Our Academic coordinator even tried to stop us by asking where we are going and each of us made our own excuses. LOL!

We finally escaped and boarded Claire’s car and off we went to Glorietta. It was exciting when we got there and walked around the malls. Miggy and I can’t help rating good-looking guys we saw around. Clarice would giggle sometimes and even had the nerve to point out on some guys. Hahaha! We went to the cinema and got our tickets. The movie wont be starting yet till 7:30 so we decided to eat dinner early. We again walked around Glorietta Malls looking for a place to dine in. Claire wanted a salad and Miggy wanted “anything edible and tasty.” The way he told us with emphasis on what he wants made me and Claire raise our eyebrows. Anyway, I spotted Italianni’s and I pointed it to them and told them I fancy dining Italian. Both of them agreed and we went in. We ordered a cesar salad, fettucini, pizza and bottom less iced tea.

The food was TERRIFIC! From the salad to the fettucini and pizza. We were so quiet and busy eating that we didn’t even bother to comment how great the food tasted! I think because each of us is watching each others’ serving, particularly over the pizza. HAHAHA! The food came one by one though so we really had our time eating. We even stayed awhile and watched other people eat and chat. I even saw a good looking guy across our table at the back. But when Claire and Miggy looked at the guy, Miggy said: “YUCK!He is gay!” “WHAT?” I was in disbelief at what he said. "How do you know?" I asked. Miggy said,“Because he is only wearing an undershirt. No men would dare go out like that except gay!” Claire agreed with him. So, there! something new that's truly educational I just learned today aside having my stomach full. We left Italiani’s and walked some more around the mall. Miggy was looking for a new cellphone and I was really having a hard time keeping up with them to avoid getting lost in the crowd. I was so full, I could hardly breath. Ugh! When we got to a Globe store, I sat down with Claire at the customer waiting area and just waited for Miggy to do his business…. Finally, we left at 15 minutes before the movie started. The movie is about the Japanese and American War. It was close captioned in English. However, half-way through the movie Miggy fell asleep. SIGH! That’s what pigs do after eating, they sleep! Hehehe!

Anyway, after the movie we strolled around again. Claire and I tried on some shoes in some stores. The shoes were nice and expensive, we plan to buy next time we get our next salary. We went home at 10:00 in the evening. Miggy and I took the LRT and from Cubao we parted ways. It was TRULY a pleasant experience. We planned to sneak out again and do this again next time!

Even Angels Smile... Up in the Skies

georgie`: :)

* georgie` hugs loki

georgie`: i need to go

Lokicat: hey

Lokicat: smile, ok?

Lokicat: and seek smiles

georgie`: i did

georgie`: :)

Lokicat: count them :) the childrens smiles

georgie`: hahaha

Eversince I learned the death of Cheyenne, I have stopped doing several things in my life. One is talking and caring to somebody I once used to value in my life. Two, is loving out of nothing and three, is waiting for something for days at no end... Losing Chey was painful and hard to accept. Yet, it changed me. It gave me a strong feeling and the power to stand and vow never ever return for those three things I used to hope for. I love my friend Cheyenne.We used to talk a lot about it during the last few months that she was alive and online. We shared so much in those remaining days.... I will always cherrish those times and will always remember her words.

i dont want to see you get hurt....you cant be done that way.... you cant let him 'find' himself with someone else...then come back to break your heart again....i love you too much.... you are too good to be treated that way.

Those were her exact words to me.Words of comfort! Words that keeps repeating. In the time she was telling me these, I couldn't quite grasp the idea. I dreaded the thought of letting go. Because I loved too much. It's so sad....losing someone is like losing a part of yourself. And eversince, June 12, 2006 I'm never ever the same again. I have lost a part of myself that used to be. I am no longer me, of who I was or used to be. When I look at the mirror,I don't see myself but I see someone else face. A face unknown, the eyes doesnt lit up when it smiles. deep within there is an emptiness and a deep sadness.

georgie`: even the angels SMILE

georgie`: Up in the Skies...

Session Close: Sat Feb 17 15:15:53 2007

HangMan in Defense of G`

Early in the morning as HangMan was feeding G` breakfast....

* G` holds her bowl of salad
* Joins: Ramy`` (~Ramy@81.10.12.129)

G`: Daddy
HangMan: yes

* G` points to Ramy`

CrazyAway: sald calls
G`: he broke my heart!
G`: waaaaa
CrazyAway: lool
Ramy``: ?
G`: Ramy`` you are dead
G`: XP
Ramy``: :D
HangMan: should daddy beat the crap out of it ?

* G` applauds
* The-Babe sets mode: +v Ramy``
* CrazyAway gets the popcorn ready for the entertainment

Ramy``: it!?
G`: loooool CrazyAway
Ramy``: egypt
G`: yup
HangMan: well

* pArAnOiD gets a large coke

HangMan: why the crap u would like a guy from egypt
pArAnOiD: worse would be one from lebanon
G`: not anymore
CrazyAway: ohhhh
pArAnOiD: looooooooool
HangMan: damn those arabs
Ramy``: noo
CrazyAway: hang em all
pArAnOiD: hahahaha
Ramy``: geezus

G` in Defense of Daddy HangMan

One day HangMan decide to have dinner with her mirc daughter....
HangMan: i got wine and coke hehe! ....umm, the salad will be delicious. Well, i be boiled 2 potatoes and some soya meat and i have some mexican mix boiling.
HangMan: gona mix all that add some cucumbers pickles and some mayo....light mayo!
sounds yummy
*G` runs to get her high chair and pushes it near the kitchen table
HangMan: come over G` it s gona be a big bowl
G`:but i dont like mexican mix
HangMan: french would be better, veggies are good!
* G` gets a serving from her daddy Hangy
HangMan: :)

* Joins: UnAsigned

HangMan: unaaaaaaaa
* G` looks up from the table
G`: unaaaaaaaaaa
G`: :D
HangMan: ahh the wine kicks in
HangMan: i m gettin chatty hehe
G`: yipeeee!
HangMan: :)

* Joins: pArAnOiD (paranoid@72.20.28.92)

HangMan: still have some left in my mug
HangMan: and some coke

* G` looks at HangMan's mug and gives it back

HangMan: i hate coke
HangMan: but is good with wine
HangMan: hehehe
G`: he he he! :)
HangMan: it s good for my low blood pressure G`
CrazyOne: anything is good if you have enough wine
* G` busy herself with the salad bowl
* HangMan gives G` an evil look

* The-Babe sets mode: +v pArAnOiD

G`: icks !

* pArAnOiD snatches the wine from HangMan

G`: The-Babe
The-Babe: G`: You ve ever been to a wedding reception at the Waffle House?
G`:git it back
G`: *get
G`: pArAnOiD give it to daddy hangy
G`: thts his vitamins!
HangMan: :D
pArAnOiD: mine too

* pArAnOiD gulps it down like a fiend
pArAnOiD: hehe

* G` shakes her head and raises her hand

G`: well daddy u have more wine?
HangMan: yes
pArAnOiD: ooo HangMan's a drunk
^Darky: a drunk ?
UnAsigneD: uhm
pArAnOiD: drunk/drunkard whatever.
G`: pfff
HangMan: i just had a mug of wine and ppl call me drunk
HangMan: G` defend u re daddy!
G`: grrrrr
G`:should i send him to china daddy?
HangMan: all the way
G`: ;D ajaaaaaaaaa
pArAnOiD: amsterdam would be more appreciated

(G` types) *x* kick #dewdropinn pArAnOiD off to amsterdam get a wooden shoes!

* pArAnOiD was kicked by X ((georgette) off to amsterdam get a wooden shoes!)*

(pArAnOiD makes revenge!)
You were kicked by X ((paranoid) ~_^)

* Attempting to rejoin channel #DewDropInn * Rejoined channel #DewDropInn
* Topic is '"The parados of our time is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints..2 http://www.dewdropinn.ro[00:11] * Set by G` on Sat Feb 17 21:34:02[00:11] -LadyKitty- {{Welcome to DewDropInn dont forget to visit at: 12 http://www.dewdropinn.ro/  for rules , pictures , addons and much more...}}[00:11] * Joins: pArAnOiD (paranoid@72.20.28.92)
^Darky: loooooooooool
G`: waaaaaaa!
G`: daddy!!!
G`: ouchie!

* The-Babe sets mode: +v G`

HangMan: hahahahaha
* G` touches her ass
HangMan: awwww
pArAnOiD: hahahaha
pArAnOiD: dont kick, its irritating

* pArAnOiD was kicked by X ((Sory) Sticks and stones may break my bones but this will get your ASS KICKED!)

* G` hugs her daddy
^Darky: poor paranoid
HangMan: daddy has handy shortcuts
HangMan: even drunk can kick

* CrazyAway laughs

* Joins: pArAnOiD (paranoid@72.20.28.92)
pArAnOiD: wtf?
HangMan: wb pArAnOiD
pArAnOiD: pff

* CrazyAway waits till HangMan sees double b4 he says anything
* HangMan was kicked by X ((paranoid) pffft)
* Joins: HangMan (sory@Sory.users.undernet.org)
* X sets mode: +o HangMan

* pArAnOiD was kicked by X ((Sory) Revenge is all mine pArAnOiD AutoKick 10 -=HangIRC=-)

G`: ahaha

* Joins: pArAnOiD (paranoid@72.20.28.92)
* The-Babe sets mode: +v HangMan
G`: lol

Cheyenne is Up in the Skies...

I wake up this morning and I thought of my dear friend Chey…she is gone…she passed away last January 30…. I had no premonition or any strange feelings that time or before and after she died except that, I did wonder how she is and how things are going on with her and Brit…. I wondered why Chey just stopped coming online…. I thought of the worse for a while but it didn’t alarm me that much ‘cuz I knew both of them are sly or cunning, they will get away with it, whatever happens you cannot separate or stop those two…. sooner or later they will be chatting again. I will just give it time. Perhaps they are in touch in private message and are using different nicks trying to catch on each other like they usually do. I didn’t want to bother them if that is the case. I like to give them privacy and let them spend their time together ‘cuz I knew how much it counts for them to find the time to talk. Besides, it’s becoming seldom, so I want to let them catch up. Time is so precious…. Sometimes I envy those two ‘cause of the kind of love they have for each other. I wish Andres have the same intensity for me…I wish he had been sincere…I told this pain to Chey during one of our last conversations last year in December…. But still, I wonder…I don’t see them anymore online…. For a while Brit used to send me website that I never bothered to look or check. Until I deleted Brit in my yahoo and Chey stopped coming or leaving me offline messages…I wonder if I will ever hear from both of them again…. I thought more about Chey. I hoped she is alright and fighting…

Its hard and painful to believe Chey is gone…I started crying and I called her name. The thought of Chey gone forever hurts. The thought she will never come back is hard. I will miss her so much. She had been one of my very good and longest online friends, one of the MOST LOYAL! I ever had. She is so much a part of my life. God I love my friend very much! But I knew she needed peace, she had enough! The clock strikes and its 7:53am just about the same time when I first saw the topic yesterday in mIRClife that Chey finally rested in peace. I couldn’t believe that. I thought at first it could be probably someone else who has the same nick cuz in #ddi, there were two Cheyenne. But that is mIRClife! I knew the other Cheyenne doesn’t come there. I must ask it just couldn’t be Chey. I called ercald who just joined but he didn’t reply. I called `Bubbles in msn, she was listening to music so I know she will answer me. I buzzed her and asked. It took a while before she replied, and when she said yes, I went numb. It couldn’t be! I don’t remember exactly what I said next, but I do remember asking when and how? I started crying as she told me what she heard, `Bubbles gave me the logs. I knew it’s because of Brit. Chey had always told me she cannot live without her and I wonder if Brit had abandoned her, I don’t think she did but then Chey won’t be gone then. Did Brit give up and just left her? That’s hard to think she could do that but then I cannot blame Brit. No matter how it hurts. I hurt so much for Chey. She is my dear friend…. When `Bubbles gave me the website in tribute to Chey, I couldn’t read it at first and I messaged Andres. I didn’t expect him to respond but to my surprise he DID! I told him about Chey and gave him the website. He acted cold, unemotional and all he said was: “I’m sorry to hear that.” “I hope she finds peace” then he went BRB. He never said anything after that and didn’t come back, he opened his music and listened to songs for a while then he left… I cried my heart alone. I thought of Chey…why?

I have work the day I saw that topic. I have no idea at that time what that day would bring. I woke up yesterday and did my usual morning routine. I went online and got connected to several messengers and channels. I am on auto join in several channels. As usual the channels in MIRC were almost full and quiet with the bots giving out their auto message greetings and people coming and going only add to confusion and enough for me to miss the topic in #ddi. I wasn’t logged yet in mIRClife cuz I didn’t add it on my auto join channel. I got bored a bit and wanted to see who are parked in mIRClife. When I joined there, I didn’t notice the topic at first. I got disconnected twice, I think. When I came back that’s when I saw the topic about Chey. After I had confirmed that it was indeed Cheyenne Williams who passed away, I went to #ddi and in the lounge and called for my Daddy HangMan (owner of the now defunct channel kitty, where me and Chey met) but he wasn’t there and someone asked me why? I told that person that a dear friend of ours died. The person who asked me told me if I am talking about Chey. I said yes and wondered how she knew. She told me its on ddi’s topic. How could have I missed it? And how long had it been there? Gosh!

Sometimes, when we go inside a chat channel we don’t pay attention nor care to read what is in the topic. We take it for granted. Thus, we miss reading what is so essential… I hope others will never take the channel’s topic for granted like I did. Please take time to look and read so what happened to me that day will not happen to you.

I wiped my tears and mustered the courage to read the tribute. The website was done by Chey’s sister. I read that Chey deleted everything and I remember losing some of my logs, which includes hers and Brits. I wonder if there was anything connected to that. I also read she had destroyed her poems. My God! Chey used to write incredible poems. She gave me one. She said its originally for Andrea but when I told her I would like to have a copy because it kind of relates to what Andres and I were going through, Chey told me I can have it and that she is also dedicating it to us! I posted that poem to my private blog and showed it to Andres only yesterday. I didn’t want to share it to anybody aside from Andres. I felt Chey’s sister has the rights to it now. It is still Chey’s poem not mine or Andres, it’s not ours to share to other people. I want to respect Chey’s work. So I went to look if there is any email address or any possible means to get in touch with her sister so I could give some of the poems I have of Chey, but there was none…

I went to work feeling disoriented. Although, I made my plans about my lessons 2 days earlier, I feel like I don’t know where to start. I have everything set but sometimes I get lost and I don’t know what I am going to do. The feeling I have inside me is just quite heavy…When my class started, I have to start by telling my students what school don’t teach them…

”School doesn’t teach you how to love someone or how to walk away on someone and tell that someone you don’t love them anymore…school doesn’t teach you that!”….

“I have said, you must know the balance when to separate your problems from work and school. That you should never bring them here when you come to class or work but leave them all at home and get back to resolving your troubles when you’ve done your other responsibilities that requires your attention right now.”…

“You need time management…know how to set your priorities…you didn’t come here in school to bring and discuss your worries at home but you came here to study…if you need help we have the guidance but only after your classes. Know your responsibilities and hold your emotional conflict, use your head and don’t let emotion over rule your judgment.”

“What happened to me this morning is beyond all that. It’s not something I can put on hold and say I will get back to that. It’s not something that can wait nor something I can attend to after I’ve done my other duties. Its not something I can bring back or hold on to when I have my time. But something that as human I have to be emotional about because it’s very painful, not even a mind can hold. Its overwhelming…. to learn my friend died.”

There was a great shock on my students’ reaction, some of them gasped, others said ohh and covered their mouth. A great silence followed and I could not contain the tears I have been trying to keep. I cried unashamedly. A student reached out and offered me her handkerchief. I didn’t take it I took a tissue from my bag and told her it’s okay. She patted my back and stood there. Everyone we’re watching me. I motioned my student to take her seat. I wiped my tears and tried to control myself. I must not break completely or I will never be able to go on and do what I must do for today’s class. It’s not fair for these students. But I owe them an explanation aside an apology for not being myself and for bringing this emotional burden.

“Death is inevitable. You cannot stop it or make it wait. It’s something beyond everybody’s control but the will of God. I want you to understand this emotional pain that not even a school can do something about or stop you from your grief. We are human. Other problems we can make our head rule over our heart but not this. Forgive me, if I am not at my usual self today and if I make mistake let me know and correct me. I will welcome it and appreciate that you speak out and correct what must be set right. Don’t be afraid to tell me that I am wrong. There is nothing to be afraid except if you didn’t study for your exam.”

None of my students said a word. They just nodded their heads. Some of the girls were in tears even the boys! All understood the emotional pain I am suffering, the shock and pain of lost.

“My friend died… and I feel lost… I don’t know some times what I am going to do or what I am suppose to do. I am not at myself at all. But I try to keep in mind you are here and I cannot ignore the fact I am living and still have responsibilities to you, as your teacher…. I want you to take your time to understand, you should never waste your time. Don’t forget to say I LOVE YOU and mean it! Say I am SORRY! FORGIVE people who has hurt you because when that person dies, you can never say those words…. They will never know, they will never see or hear it… Do not have regrets in the end, don’t do it until its too late! DO IT NOW! Doesn’t matter if love isn’t returned to you, doesn’t matter if your apology isn’t accepted nor your thank you is brushed aside and ignored. But do know in that person heart and in the eyes of God, you gave your self, you did your part in all sincerity!”

I recall when Chey and I used to talk especially when our talk is heart to heart we never fail to say those three important words. We always say I LOVE YOU to each other. I have no regrets. I didn’t fail to let her know she is in my heart and that I care that much, that I LOVE HER AS MY FRIEND. And she the same. I don’t recall any moment of having any misunderstandings with her. We never had any of those. We were always there to be silly, laughing, defending or supporting each other when one of us is about to cry and lost hope…. The last time we talked, she was at the brink of giving up her life but I told her to please hold on. I made her hang on for a while and I made her promise me she will never take her life away no matter what happen. I assured her Brit loves her that much and she will never leave. I know Brit does with the same intensity.... Before we ended our chat, Chey made me promise too I will not take away my own life for Andres and I told her I NEVER WILL! I can say I am glad that I did my part in making Chey’s life better for being her friend…for being there especially in those last few months that she was active, when she most needed me... For not failing in anything…

Lastly, I also learned that her sister's name is AmyLynn ( we met last night in #ddi). And like Amy, Chey shared her life with me for three wonderful years...

To Cheyenne, my dearest friend, I will miss you very much, you hold dear deep and true in my heart and wherever you are, I hope you are happy and at peace---Up in the Skies….

Cheyenne

" When I awake, I am with you... "

HARD CORE BROWNIES

MsGDmsc: but dunno how to set microwave
MsGDmsc: i use it only for heating not baking
MsGDmsc: icks!
MsGDmsc: hence my brownies turned hard as a rock after an hour
MsGDmsc: :S

NO-BAKE!

[ChAoS]: so deep dish?
[ChAoS]: or not
MsGDmsc: :D
[ChAoS]: deep dish on the pie?
MsGDmsc: ?!?
MsGDmsc: pan
[ChAoS]: okay heres how i make mine.
MsGDmsc: dont make it complicated
MsGDmsc: im a like first timer with this
[ChAoS]: 2 cream cheese. 1 yogurt or sourcream (like 8 oz).
2 eggs. 1/4 cup sugar. 1 T lemonjuice.
MsGDmsc: this is not pancake
MsGDmsc: lol
MsGDmsc: and?
MsGDmsc: this is no bake?
[ChAoS]: mix it all and add in a t. of vanilla
[ChAoS]: no its bake
MsGDmsc: i dont have oven!!!

* Joins: glee (~lee_bugz@203.87.184.2)

MsGDmsc: ack
[ChAoS]: !!!
[ChAoS]: no oven!!
[ChAoS]: omg
MsGDmsc: im doing a NO BAKE!
[ChAoS]: well if you did...
[ChAoS]: pour it into the pan and bake for 40 mins
MsGDmsc: i have a microwave though

* [ChAoS] grumbles

MsGDmsc: looooool